Randomness

Okay, first of all I really hve to try and keep up with my web blog and inviting people to my site.

Everything is falling into place here, and I can’t help but feel at peace with that.  I have found my new J-O-B and am pleased with that.  To some it’s not much but to myself and my little family here it mean we don’t have to call our parents everytime we need that extra help, we don’t need to sacrifice bills so that we may eat 3 healthy meals a day, we don’t need to take loans that have interest tact on and end up paying more than the loan itself; and last but not least we don’t need to move home or closer to home.  Don’t get me wrong all the family support we get is awesome but i can’t help but feel is we move home we’ll end up abusing that and end up like so many other individuals who don’t want to move because they are to scared to be away from thier comfort zone and having a majority of what they have handed to them.  My daughter doesn’t need to be learning that just yet.  Our parents are awesome for all the support they have given Watson and I but everytime we recieve it we can’t help but feel terrible about it.  They have their own bills/responsibilities and children to look after and provide for.  We are grateful to have 4 caring parents in our lives.

We also found a new place to live.  It’s a three bedroom townhouse with a basement and it will feel so damn good to get out of here.  The health related problems in this apartment are getting to be too much for us and there definitely is more room for guests.  Another plus to this place we are moving into is that Nev’s daycare is about 15Walk away:D.  

My Mini-Me will be turning 2 this coming month:O  How time flys.  She is quite amazing.  I was sitting here this afternoon emailing my father and she disappeared down the hallway.  A few minutes later i realized shes pretty quiet, I walked toward the hallway and saw that the bathroom door was wide open so I crept up on it and peeked in:L  Low and behold My daughter sitting on the toilet all teary eyed and red faced POOPING:L  She didn’t even put “her little toilet seat on” the bigger seat and was holding herself up with her hands and arms.  She usally comes to grab me but lately prefers me not to be in the bathroom with her.  She’ll allow me to stand by the door and wipe for her:L  I figure because it takes to long for her to run and grab me, tell me and me run her back to the bathroom.  By the time I get her there she has already gone in her “panties”.  She is growing fast, My baby is no longer a baby anymore.  She is a toddler and i’ve started acknowledging that and teaching her that she is a “Big girl now”.  I haven’t been calling her baby as of lately and for the ones I do invite to this site i ask that you go by what I’ve been teaching her.  I don’t want her confused about this.   She was recently introduced to her babyBrother when we went home for thanksgiving:D  Man-o-man she never ceases to amaze me.  She really does Love babies.  No Jealousy toward them, she was even called over to be shown that “look who mommas carrying” she ran over to us and kissed baby and ran away:L  The next few times she was called she just looked and looked away.  When She first seen me carrying Jr. she came over and was telling everyone “ssssh baby” in her whispering voice!  I’m so proud of her.

Anyway I suppose this is it for now.

Karma

KARMA?! 
I believe that Karma is what you’ve done(past), what you’re doing(present), and what you are going(future) to do in ALL your lives(Reincarnation).[/i] 
The conclusion, base, fruits or after-math of Your actions is called Karma. 
Karma is not vengful, vindictive, just, or rewarding; Nor does it deliver punishment. It is simply “your life”, what you’ve helped create, YOUR experiences(which is why some people believe what your are going through now is what was meant to be, after all THEY HELPED CREATE THEIR OWN LIFE). 
For some there are ALOT of happy occasions, others alot of painful ones: ultimately you created those. They may have been thoughts and I too believed”karma will get you in the end” (when I was pissed at certain people), however it doesn’t work that way because 
YOU CREAT YOUR OWN FUTURE. 
They are thoughts that you turned into actions(which is why some believe if you think negative all the time thats all your going to reap, or “you reap what you sew” and vice versa).
Why you ask I put ALL your lives at the beginning of my blog? simply because I believe it exists. You reap what you sew in past and future lives as well. 
Most believe reincarnation to be apart of the spirit or soul; A higher or TRUE-SELF. Through out your lifes your going to be a different person, but that part of you will somewhat remain the same; bringing with “you” apart of what you done in a previous life and so on and so forth.

Why did I write this blog? I’m sure some are wondering. Simply because I’ve seen ALOT of profile sayings and such, stating somehow Karma will get you in the end or that it works in funny ways. This is not to put anyone in a bad mood it is just me stating my beliefs. 
Karma is not classified as a good or bad thing(s) that happens in your life. It is simply What is. what if the person(s) you wish karma upon like their life the way it is?. You ever stop and think maybe I PUT myself in these situations.? Wishing karma upon people does nothing. IT DOES NOT SATISFY ANYONE INCLUDING YOURSELF. your still going to be sitting there talking smack about that person(s) and what “they’ve done to you”. 

Here is a definition I found on the internet: 

Karma (Sanskrit: kárma), kárman- “act, action, performance”[1]; Pali: kamma; Chinese: yinguo ) is the concept of “action” or “deed” in Indian religions understood as that which causes the entire cycle of cause and effect (i.e., the cycle called samsara) described in Hindu, Jain, Sikh and Buddhist philosophies. 

Ultimately I believe if you wish Karma upon a person(s) you are a vengeful, hurt, vindictive person. And maybe you think you have a right to think this way about others(and you do according to the human bill of rights), but your only hurting yourself. you ever think your in those situations becuase of your own choices.? you choose to do this and that, you choose to be with that person knowingly of who s/he is with ALL their faults, you put trust in relationships that most wouldn’t have, ULTIMATELY you choose the person you were going to be. 
Wether you are loyal, two-faced, vengeful, hateful, happy, angry, etc. You and your choices decided it some where along the way. 
KeLCJean

Joining a new bloggy world:D

Well for the ones who will be viewing this, I’ve decided my Bebo community just isn’t ready for my truths, my confessions and for the most part my thoughts.  Hopefully I’ll get better feedback on this one;)

As most of you know Watson, Nev and myself have been living in Prince George BC, for the better part 2 going on 3 years.  Our realationship itself started immediately after our graduation 2005.  We as a couple have faced many obsticles, ones of which i will not detail just yet;).  We have a beautiful daughter(whom my login is for, captivatinglybeautiful), she will be turning 2 in November:O.  I am still in disbelief sometimes, I HAVE A DAUGHTER; shes a beautiful one at that.  Thinking back now, I did not see myself as being a mother at such a young age.  I would not trade her for the world<3  I’ll admit I’m quite the Hypocrite in this area, but know this I’m honest I can admit that…Can you accept it.

It is quite amazing how how such a little person can change you in such short time.  It’s amazing how you can love someone so much(Watson) and then this child comes into your life and bumps that person right aside.  I would/will do anything for my girl.  Shes grown so much, from being this baby that did not cry when she came into this world(just looked all around her surroundings), to being this toddler who loves to test her limits and does her absolute best to try and sway every decision in her favor(esp. when it comes to snack time).

I myself pride myself in my beliefs, if you know me most think of me as a bitch.  I could honestly careless.  Why?  Because the ones who say it don’t know the real me.  I don’t like Fake, selfish, non-contributing, gossipers, backstabbers, frenemies (ppl who say they are you friends but really don’t like you), one-sided”stories”, etc…  Sounds like alot, it really isn’t;)  The only thing you have to be with me is real.  The conversation I like to have with most people is one where even if you entered the conversation angry or upset, you leave happy and smiling.  Another reason people don’t like me(people back home) is because i don’t like part-time parenting( drinking ALL weekend, ditching YOUR kids all weekend), voicing my concern on this topic seemed to have been a lost cause, but at the same time not.  Why.? because more people are aware of it now.  It may have cost me a few friendships but damn was it worth it.  I don’t need to be friends with people like that.  If I could they would all be out of our lives, but I can’t do that unfortunatly my daughter is related to A LOT of them.  The sad part about it is the children are the ones that suffer, its called cause and effect people….everything you do effects your childs and thats why I am bettering myself for my daughter.  The BEST memories she will have won’t be with a babysitter.  They will always use the same oLD excuses one of which is “its healthy to take a break every now and then”.  First of all a healthy break isn’t ALL WEEKEND, second; every now and then doesn’t mean EVERY WEEKEND.

Well I guess I’ve blogged enough on that topic for a bit:L  

On a better note, I am a fun loving, caring, smart, beautiful individual. 

I hoe this site is one to remember, also one that you’d like to visit more often;)

I will def write more later!

Kelsey